That single pink line surrounded
by nothing but white used to be heartbreaking. Every month I know I'm
probably not pregnant and yet every time ovulation comes and goes my
mind and body play tricks on me. I spend 2 weeks a month wondering if
this could be the month. I predict when I would be due if it were to
happen and fantasize about telling my family. Every month I take a test
so I can stop getting my hopes up and when that single pink line appears
I remember that my body sucks.
I wonder what it's like for fertile
people. I can't imagine just wanting a baby then getting pregnant just
like that. That's not the path that God put on us and as crazy as it
sounds I'm so grateful.
If we had gotten pregnant on
our own we wouldn't have Brennan. I couldn't imagine my life for a
second without her. If we had gotten pregnant on our own we wouldn't
have 4 little embryos in Texas just waiting to make their way here and
into my uterus. I don't know exactly what will happen but I do know that
one little lonely line has gotten us to this point.
As
for our update. We have a signed and notarized contract!! Our donors
are seriously incredible. When we asked for more information from their
fertility clinic our donors got it to us within hours!! We negotiated
the contract in no time and they signed and returned it within days.
They have made this process so easy on us.
We have
submitted all of the release forms to the Texas (shipping) clinic and
have decided to go with Cryoport. They make it so easy! They take care
of coordinating with both the shipping & receiving clinics, manage
the packaging, shipping and receiving with email updates all along the
way! We hope it all happens as easily as they make it sound. We will be
so relieved when our embryos make it here safe and sound. My husband, daughter and I pray for our embryos every night and know that God will see this through.
We
have gone back and forth a lot about the time frame for our Frozen
Embryo transfer. Please be praying that we are able to follow God's plan
and in His time rather than in our time.
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