Saturday, February 29, 2020

Transfer #2 outcome

Exactly 4 years ago today I was celebrating my rising Beta HCG and anticipating an ultrasound to see my little ones heart beating for the first time. Today while snuggling my little girl and feeling that same heart beat against my hand my mind started drifting off. I started wondering if I will ever get to see a little baby growing inside of me again. Despite a beautiful lining, great hormone levels and what we all thought was perfect cycle timing another perfect little girl embryo decided not to stick. My HCG was negative and we are all devastated. We have a call with the IPs reproductive endocrinologist (RE) on Monday to figure out next steps. We planned from the beginning to give it 3 tries so we will give it another go in the coming months. Please pray for strength and peace for everyone involved. This has been a roller coaster of emotions and at times has been really hard to remain hopeful.

My sister sent me her daily devotional the morning of our confirmed negative. While it’s a lot easier to pray for God to grant my heart’s desires I intimately know that He is running the show. Praying for trust and faith in His plan.

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